On Procrastination

When I procrastinate, usually it’s because I’m stuck on wanting things to turn out perfect.

And I have this voice inside me (sometimes) that tells me it won’t ever be. Tells me not to even bother. Tells me I’m not ready for prime time. Not yet.

And so there are days when I let the clock tick away. And silently hope that with each passing minute, perhaps I’ll at last be closer to being ready. Perhaps I’ll be closer to being that polished and pristine version of myself that I see in my head.

But that version? Well, she never shows up.

And yet…after many hours of avoidance and frustration and deep breathing…

Something jolts me. Something clicks. My courage, my inner sense of blunt ferocity, finally kicks in. And I go with it. I listen to it. 

I sit there. I do the thing. Whatever it is: I write the pages or I make the call or I lay the colors on the canvas.

And as I do so, something happens. Something takes over inside of me. Time itself becomes a meaningless void–

And I’m on fire.

And at this point I know, without consciously grasping it, that everything’s going to turn out fine.

And all the agony I’d put into simply starting has become a distant memory.

Funny how that works.

What I’m saying is:

You know that thing you want to do? Stop putting it off.

Stop saying, “Tomorrow.”

Stop doubting you can.

Stop waiting for every single condition to be ideal.

Stop running the thoughts and the worries and the fears through your mind.

‘Cause you’ve got this.

You + This Moment = Pure Genius

So let go and just be in this moment. Yes, this-one-right-here.

Allow it to simply overtake you.

Then do the breathtaking things you were made to do. Create art. Take the leap. Pour your soul out on the table. Make the change. 

You alone know what you must do.

That thing that calls out to you, day and night.

That thing you try to ignore, but that won’t ignore you.

There’s a reason why it’s reaching out for you. So don’t neglect it. Know why? ‘Cause that single act of neglect could be the missed opportunity of a lifetime.

And you’ve only got one shot at this life. So live it with your whole heart, and don’t let your mind get in the way of all the beauty you can create.

‘Cause what kind of a life is a life without beauty, after all? 

8 Comments
  • Patricia
    Posted at 18:27h, 28 August

    Rhoda, I must saying that the Universe knows, our Spirits know, our Hearts know. Your passage “On Procrastination” was exceptional. It hit straight into my heart chakra. I was just having those thoughts about what I should be doing while lying across the bed. Thank you so much for your inspiration and wisdom.

    • Rhoda Jordan
      Posted at 21:21h, 28 August

      Thank you so much! And WOW what beautiful synchronicity! I just love when that happens!!

  • Brenda Thomas
    Posted at 20:16h, 28 August

    I do this everyday. I sit and think of all the things I need to do and what would the benefits of doing all of it would mean and I still sit there and let my mind just tell me to do it …. But my body won’t move. No motivation …

    • Rhoda Jordan
      Posted at 21:23h, 28 August

      The trick is not to think! That gets me tripped up too. Just dive right in, and don’t worry about it being messy or not the way you pictured it. You can always adjust later!

  • Kayla
    Posted at 03:11h, 29 August

    Thank you Rhoda for this wonderful insight! This is the very I needed to get me in the correct mindset. I have been struggling with getting things done to start my business and now I have the proper perspective to see things through; otherwise I would block the inner flow & resistance would build up and that would create even more momentum to not completing things.

    • Rhoda Jordan
      Posted at 05:07h, 29 August

      Omg Kayla I hear you! I’ve been there so many times too. It always feels so good to break through the resistance and come out the other side of it having completed something. In those moments, I always feel like, “Wow, that wasn’t so bad at ALL. Why did I have such a problem starting in the first place?!”

  • Josiah
    Posted at 04:58h, 29 August

    Rhoda, you are sO beautiful. 😉 Thanks for the reminder on procrastination… I really needed it, as far as school and personal things I need to accomplish. 😎

    • Rhoda Jordan
      Posted at 07:30h, 29 August

      Awww thanks so much Josiah! Sending you some productive vibes to accomplish all that you set out to do!