28 Aug On Procrastination
When I procrastinate, usually it’s because I’m stuck on wanting things to turn out perfect.
And I have this voice inside me (sometimes) that tells me it won’t ever be. Tells me not to even bother. Tells me I’m not ready for prime time. Not yet.
And so there are days when I let the clock tick away. And silently hope that with each passing minute, perhaps I’ll at last be closer to being ready. Perhaps I’ll be closer to being that polished and pristine version of myself that I see in my head.
But that version? Well, she never shows up.
And yet…after many hours of avoidance and frustration and deep breathing…
Something jolts me. Something clicks. My courage, my inner sense of blunt ferocity, finally kicks in. And I go with it. I listen to it.
I sit there. I do the thing. Whatever it is: I write the pages or I make the call or I lay the colors on the canvas.
And as I do so, something happens. Something takes over inside of me. Time itself becomes a meaningless void–
And I’m on fire.
And at this point I know, without consciously grasping it, that everything’s going to turn out fine.
And all the agony I’d put into simply starting has become a distant memory.
Funny how that works.
What I’m saying is:
You know that thing you want to do? Stop putting it off.
Stop saying, “Tomorrow.”
Stop doubting you can.
Stop waiting for every single condition to be ideal.
Stop running the thoughts and the worries and the fears through your mind.
‘Cause you’ve got this.
You + This Moment = Pure Genius
So let go and just be in this moment. Yes, this-one-right-here.
Allow it to simply overtake you.
Then do the breathtaking things you were made to do. Create art. Take the leap. Pour your soul out on the table. Make the change.
You alone know what you must do.
That thing that calls out to you, day and night.
That thing you try to ignore, but that won’t ignore you.
There’s a reason why it’s reaching out for you. So don’t neglect it. Know why? ‘Cause that single act of neglect could be the missed opportunity of a lifetime.
And you’ve only got one shot at this life. So live it with your whole heart, and don’t let your mind get in the way of all the beauty you can create.
‘Cause what kind of a life is a life without beauty, after all?